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Just like the old days,
having a busy hand at the last moments,
turning off everything,
running down the stairs with full hands,
files and papers, bag unzipped.
reaching the car in a rush.
getting in the car and settling everything.
a set of actions that happened over and over for four years.
it happened again after a year passed.
it takes me back to those old days.
when i was spending some beautiful years in my college.
i am happy to have such a memory, happy to see my teachers again,
and happy to be in a place i value very much.
that day was just like the old days.


This post is just a random one. I want to write freely about my feelings. well, there is actually no one to read it. So i’m gonna write it to myself !. I’m sitting on my lap top and keep thinking alot. my life is getting boring and boring. I really need to study or to find a job. I prefer studying but it is somehow difficult!. i can learn things by myself but .. in my life .. sadly they do not think about talent or they even do not test your abilities. they are just concerned about the papers that proof you studied something! it’s ok if i don’t have any good certificates. but i have good ones and i should be able at least to go under a test! and IF they test us.. it’s end up choosing people they know! I’m in a place that people can study and work if they know higher ranked people. the higher the person you know the best job or education you got. it is not something about the good talent you have ,the best education you’ve got not the longest experience you have. well, this is one thing of the hard things i’m trying to deal with in my world.

Long ago, I had a wish. A wish to repay my teachers or make them proud of me. Even if I did repay only one of them I would be glad. Today I have remembered that wish. I went to my sister’s elementary school graduation ceremony. She attended the same school as me. So, a lot of her teachers had taught me. I was so happy to see them again. I went to meet my teachers and say hello to them. Some of them remembered me, while others did not. One of them was sitting between some of her friends. they were joking about her becoming old. I asked her if she still remember me. She asked me what level I am in my study. As soon as I told her I have my bachelor degree she pretended not to know me or teach me. Everyone was laughing so hard at her trying to convince them that she is young. suddenly her daughter came into the room and called her “Mom”.I turned my head to have a look at her daughter which gave me a shock. I asked my teacher with wonderment ” Is she your daughter ?”. She replayed ” yes”.So I gave her another shock by saying : “I have taught your daughter in my teaching practical training”. immediately everyone laughed again so hard at her while she strongly pretended not teaching me nor knowing me. It was funny to talk with her and laugh with her in that way. Also, I felt that one of my old wishes came true. I have always wished to teach a daughter of a teacher of mine. It was one of the ways to repay those who taught me. that’s why my wish came true.

July 2018
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